wow... this bloody header footer crap is inconvenient. i like just writing a body, i'm lazy. and honestly: song, book, and movie... no one cares... i don't even care. thanks da for the subscription, but i don't really need it. i apoligize for not getting to everyone's deviations as of late. stuff has been wierd. good note, i'm no longer depressed. another even better note, i remember everything. i mean everything. i feel awesome. the world is at my finger tips and craving to be worked by me. i am unstoppable once again. i remember how to feed off of people's doubt, fear, and all around negative energy. it feels great. agony is probably the tastiest of these. i figure, in regards to chiara. i win either way. what i would really like is if she allowed me to free her from her pain and she came back to me. but if not, i can always devour the pain she feels. i see it in her eyes when she talks to me. why does she not want me to free her from her pain. Jesus wants her to be happy. i can make her happy. but really, its of no consequence. i am happy one way or the other. i would be happier by her side, but i can still instill doubt in her mind. my mind and soul are finally aligned in a task, different motives of course, but they are working together. i miss you chiara, but i will not be shackled to despair. and neither should you my dear girl. let me free you.